Messages from Kim...

Pickles and I recently went to see Disney/Pixar's "Up!" in Disney Digital 3D...

First off, don't go see that movie with anyone you are afraid or uncomfortable crying in front of.

YOU WILL CRY...

So will they...

I saw grown up "Macho" men, walking out of that theater, wiping their eyes.

It's a SAD, yet HAPPY movie at the same time.

To me, it seemed almost a like a message from Kim.

I won't give you specifics about the plot, but I am going to relay the message I got from the film.

If you haven't seen it yet, consider yourself warned.

Possible Spoiler warning.

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And the message I got out of the film, and was stated atleast once, was "Thanks for the adventure of a lifetime, now go have another" or in other words, stop sitting around thinking about me, and go have fun.

I try to have fun.

Sometimes.

I do think of her an awful lot tho.

I don't think that will ever change.

In fact, despite wanting to belive this was a message from Kim, I doubt I'm going to change much.

I love her. I won't just "Move On". I will try to add more Kim like activities in my life, to try and remember her in a healthy way. I will try to leave the house more than once a week... But I won't "move on".

-HuGgLeS-

-P/KAF

-The one drowing in a puddle full of tears....

Ringy Tones...

I have no clue if this should be here, or in my personal blog... But it has a bit to do with both, so I will post it here...

When Kim was admitted to the Hospital in Febuary 2008, I was a couple of short days from getting a new phone.

I bought that phone the day before she went into surgery.

As always comes w/ new phones, I had to transfer all my stuff from one to another, set ringtones, and set everything up.

When I did all that, I set a personalized ringtone for Kim...

At first I put "One Week" by BNL (Barnaked Ladies) because of the lyrics "It's been, One week since you looked at me" which was a inside joke kinda that she'd been in the hospital for a week or so.

When she didn't come home right after the surgery, and things started to look like they would take longer to get better, I changed her ringtone.

Kim and I both loved BNL. She's the one that really got me in to listening and HEARING their music. Understanding a lot of the undertones, and thinking more than about the pretty sounds.

The song I chose for Kim's ringtone was one that still makes me cry everytime I think about it, hear it, or anything.

The song is "Falling For The First Time" by Barenaked Ladies.

Because everytime I think about her, every time I see a picture of her, always... AWLAYS...

No matter how much time passes, I feel just as much love for her, as I did when I first met her.

She wasn't my biological mommy.

But what we had was even more special.

She CHOSE to be my mommy.

I CHOSE to be her little girl.

Some people say, there is no love stronger that that of a Mother and her Biological mother.

I counter that, and say that Mine and Kim's love for each other, would over shadow any other love in the universe.

I MISS HER SO MUCH!

-P/KAF/PT

-The Lonely Girl, with the streams of tears....