Messages from Kim...

Pickles and I recently went to see Disney/Pixar's "Up!" in Disney Digital 3D...

First off, don't go see that movie with anyone you are afraid or uncomfortable crying in front of.

YOU WILL CRY...

So will they...

I saw grown up "Macho" men, walking out of that theater, wiping their eyes.

It's a SAD, yet HAPPY movie at the same time.

To me, it seemed almost a like a message from Kim.

I won't give you specifics about the plot, but I am going to relay the message I got from the film.

If you haven't seen it yet, consider yourself warned.

Possible Spoiler warning.

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And the message I got out of the film, and was stated atleast once, was "Thanks for the adventure of a lifetime, now go have another" or in other words, stop sitting around thinking about me, and go have fun.

I try to have fun.

Sometimes.

I do think of her an awful lot tho.

I don't think that will ever change.

In fact, despite wanting to belive this was a message from Kim, I doubt I'm going to change much.

I love her. I won't just "Move On". I will try to add more Kim like activities in my life, to try and remember her in a healthy way. I will try to leave the house more than once a week... But I won't "move on".

-HuGgLeS-

-P/KAF

-The one drowing in a puddle full of tears....

Ringy Tones...

I have no clue if this should be here, or in my personal blog... But it has a bit to do with both, so I will post it here...

When Kim was admitted to the Hospital in Febuary 2008, I was a couple of short days from getting a new phone.

I bought that phone the day before she went into surgery.

As always comes w/ new phones, I had to transfer all my stuff from one to another, set ringtones, and set everything up.

When I did all that, I set a personalized ringtone for Kim...

At first I put "One Week" by BNL (Barnaked Ladies) because of the lyrics "It's been, One week since you looked at me" which was a inside joke kinda that she'd been in the hospital for a week or so.

When she didn't come home right after the surgery, and things started to look like they would take longer to get better, I changed her ringtone.

Kim and I both loved BNL. She's the one that really got me in to listening and HEARING their music. Understanding a lot of the undertones, and thinking more than about the pretty sounds.

The song I chose for Kim's ringtone was one that still makes me cry everytime I think about it, hear it, or anything.

The song is "Falling For The First Time" by Barenaked Ladies.

Because everytime I think about her, every time I see a picture of her, always... AWLAYS...

No matter how much time passes, I feel just as much love for her, as I did when I first met her.

She wasn't my biological mommy.

But what we had was even more special.

She CHOSE to be my mommy.

I CHOSE to be her little girl.

Some people say, there is no love stronger that that of a Mother and her Biological mother.

I counter that, and say that Mine and Kim's love for each other, would over shadow any other love in the universe.

I MISS HER SO MUCH!

-P/KAF/PT

-The Lonely Girl, with the streams of tears....

When Kim was in the hospital...

 We used to do several things to benchmark her lucidity... Most of them would only make sense to a few people... I would do things like ask Kim, "What's the Punxatawny Phil Movie" (Groundhogs Day, with Bill Murry) or "What is the HappyFace'd CD I like" (Songs from an American Movie, Vol1. by Everclear. There was a 2nd CD with a Sad face on it I believe).

Now Kim was a MOVIE GEEK extreme... She had seen all the classics. Most the B-Rated movies, and just was a fountain of knowledge for Hollywood and general movie industry trivia.... And over time, she learned how to associate things like songs with the way things looked, or how you felt the last time you heard them... Because my mind is just weird like that.

N-E-Ways, based on if she could answer these questions at all, or how long it took her to, we were able to gauge her lucidity... The doctors used to ask her questions like "Who is that" and point to me or Bill... She NEVER got those questions wrong... Sometimes, she managed to call bill Pickles or Sir P. which confused the doctors... Or call me Kirstyn when I certainly didn't look like a Kirstyn... But hey... She always knew whom we were... And she always remembered Wendy whom was unable to be around due to her own illness... But it was funny... She could think she was in a military base, or being attacked by aliens... And she would always know Bill, Me and Wendy... 

-Sighs-

I miss her More and More lately.

-HuGgLeS-

-P/KAF/PT/The girl in the corner with the sad anime eyes....

A whole new blog...

This blog is called Kimflections.... I plan to use it, as a place to post info about the MOST wonderfull person I ever had the chance to know. Kimberly Elizabeth Fox, known to many in the TG Fiction communities as KimEM was a wonderfull person, whom chose to share many parts of her life with me.

I can't promise to update this blog often... Well I could, but I am trying to keep my promises...

The need for this blog (in my mind atleast) came when I realized that my blog ( http://geekyblog.blogspot.com ) was alot less GEEKY than it had been in the past, and had basically become the Encylopedia Kimtanica(R)

N-E-Ways. no real content today, I just wanted to get this set up before I realized it was just another project for me to not finish.

-HuGgLeS-
-Piper